Bittersweet Life...

Sunday, January 16, 2005

im freakin bored today... the whole day. wacthed white chichks again in the morning, during breakfast. i dunno wat i wanna do todae.... so here i am blogging my tots and feelings like the usual.

im having mood swings. major mood swings. fro example, i will talk to my mum nicely, yet the next moment i will be all frustrated and angry at her. i have no idea wat's wrong with me.... it's like i wanna talk to ppl, but yet, i dun feel like talking to them. i usually call ppl up when im bored, like ema or adrena. but somehow, today, or yesterday or lately, i feel hesistant to call them. i've lessened the usage of phone too... i think. i mean i dun talk so much now like i used too.... argh.... i feel jovial for a few mins, but when someone talks to me the next moment, i juz freak out and have this black face (like wat adibah describes it). i might be turning crazy... w/o knowing it. and tt's scary.

even when i feel like blogging, and when im already at the page where im supposed to type my entry, i juz dun like it anymore. another thing is tt im so fickle minded. very fickled bout issues. minor ones... like whether i should eat an apple or not. or whether i should eat cadbury chocos. i hate myself now... but soon, ill juz start to love myself again... and ill be angry at sth, even could be angry at myself. i have no idea wat im talking bout.... tempremental? yeah.... maybe not either... maybe it's juz me. maybe it's pms. but it's too early for it, i think.

juz me and my stupid tots... again. over and over again... well, i feel better now.. hope it lasts... damn.

Smashed into pieces at 1/16/2005 04:31:00 PM